"How I stopped My Anxiety Attacks"

I feel like you can do anything, if have mind control, so if any of you have lived with any form of depression, then I'm sure you have also dealt with anxiety attacks or panic attacks. when we live with depression we worry so much about nothing that we sometimes scare ourselves into a major anxiety or panic attack. What seem to scare us into an anxiety or panic attack is the question What If?, That all it take for the mind to go off on a tangent;causing a full blown panic attack. It's this kind of insane thinking that causes, racing hearts, bad thoughts, sweating and short breaths, which is very debilitating to the sufferer. People with depression don want to think negatively, it just seem to b e able to turn their thoughts around to the positive thinking mode. I was told by the doctor that there's a chemical imbalance in the brain because the serotonin and norepinephrine is running low, causing havoc on your positive thinking abilities. Because of the lost of these two chemicals, it's hard turn to off the negative thoughts and turn on the positive thoughts. It's very hard to be positive when you're being bombarded with negative feedback, believe me I know. I have lived with depression off and on for about twenty years and the sad thing about depression is most people not aware that they have it,until they almost have a nervous break down.

This disease is mentally debilitating to anyone that has it, because you cannot keep a positive out look; because of all of the negative clutter that's in your brain. I honestly didn't know I had depression, I just know that I didn't feel like me anymore, because of the feelings of sadness and impending doom, that loomed over me most of the time. Depression is living a life of read from one day to another. All of the negativity in your life that you're thing about will soon or later cause you to spiral into a panic attack or an anxiety attack, what ever you wan to call it, it's a bad thing to go through,especially by yourself, but You try to keep it to yourself, because you think people will think you got a few screws loose.  Depression causes you stop living a healthy, happy life and start living a life of dread and impending dooms, many times you scare yourself into anxiety attack that causes, heart palpitations, fast heart beats,sweating and breathing short breaths; it also make you have undo worrying about everything. When you 're in the throws of an anxiety attack , you're in a place where you don't wan to be; with fast breathing, your hearts about to jump out of your chest, thoughts racing one hundred miles a minute, but until you realize that you have to calm your self down, your anxiety want be controlled and you're afraid of all kinds of scary thoughts.

When having an anxiety attack, you must talk loud to your self, with positive dialogue like calm your self, this is ridiculous, I'm fine, I'm just having a panic attack.  Then you must take deep breaths by breathing deeply and slowly blowing it out and continue the breathing until your heart  beating is going back to normal and you have calmed down to reality again.  If I hadn't lived my life ,going through many episode of depression and panic and anxiety attacks, I couldn't help anyone with this information from my own experiences.  I do hope that with me coming forward and telling my story that it will help some one else handle the anxiety attacks. and depression  problem. I did finally go to the doctor and told me ,it was deep depression and gave me medication that I was on for about six months and it did help me immensely, and I got of of it, eventually. I want say I'm totally over it, I have my  moments but nothing like  before. I read the bible and pray a lot and keep busy so I don't have time to think about a lot of  negativity.

Benny Faye Douglass